Month: March 2021

But today

Last year this time, I couldn’t enjoy my birthday cake

Last year this time, I was sad and hopeless, waiting for surgery

Last year this time, I was living in pain and inflammation

Last year this time we were about to go into lockdown

Last year this time humanity faced a new challenge

Last year this time we looked for joy

Last year this time we painted rainbows to feel closer together

Last year this time I wrote my story about sadness and joy

But today? Today I celebrate another birthday

Today we still work within the guidelines and avoids gatherings

Today we keep showing our resilience against the virus

Today I can eat cake, and walk, and dance

Today I am healthy again

Today there is no invisible fire, no pain

Today, hope grows as the world distributes the vaccine

Today, we are still finding joy amidst the sadness

Stay safe everyone

Whisper II

I think I heard a quiet whisper in my heart

So subtle it’s hard to know for sure

I think I hear it say to me

That things can always change

I glimpse the changes all around me as spring comes near

I see the possibilities and reality of the world

I feel myself transitioning to a new relationship

With myself, family, friends, and colleagues

No longer do I lock my door

Afraid to rest and relax unprotected

Now we play and laugh and argue like before

And genuine smiles replace harsh glares

We see a light at the end of humanity’s viral battle

With increased vaccinations and cases descending

This chronic illness shadow has recently returned

But while my physical symptoms are not as severe

The emotional reaction is a different story

Remission continues but I still have this disease

Maybe, I hear it whisper, maybe transformation continues

And fate or evolution has spun the wheel again

The whisper seems to say that hope is not lost

It seems to say to try and trust again

Try to open up your broken heart and embrace change

Take it in, grieve the old, forgive past mistakes, and keep going

Yesterday I felt hope was gone

today I dare to dream again

Stay safe everyone!